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..Lost In Blue..


..Lost In Blue..
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Copyright: Ay Da (chiaraluna) Gold Star Critiquer/Gold Star Workshop Editor/Gold Note Writer [C: 435 W: 90 N: 567] (2560)
Genre: People
Medium: Color
Date Taken: 2005-03
Categories: Mood, HPP [Heavily Post-Processed], Portrait
Camera: Toshiba PDR-4300
Details: Tripod: Yes (Fill) Flash: Yes
Photo Version: Original Version
Date Submitted: 2005-05-27 2:55
Viewed: 797
Favorites: 1 [view]
Points: 40
[Note Guidelines] Photographer's Note
Hours continuing long, sore and heavy-hearted,
Hours of the dusk, when I withdraw to a lonesome and unfrequented spot, seating myself, leaning my face in my hands;
Hours sleepless, deep in the night, when I go forth, speeding swiftly the country roads, or through the city streets, or pacing miles and miles, stifling plaintive cries;
Hours discouraged, distracted--for the one I cannot content myself without, soon I saw him content himself without me;
Hours when I am forgotten, (O weeks and months are passing, but I believe I am never to forget!)
Sullen and suffering hours! (I am ashamed--but it is useless--I am what I am;)
Hours of my torment--I wonder if other men ever have the like, out of the like feelings?
Is there even one other like me--distracted--his friend, his lover, lost to him?
Is he too as I am now? Does he still rise in the morning, dejected, thinking who is lost to him? and at night, awaking, think who is lost?
Does he too harbor his friendship silent and endless? harbor his anguish and passion?
Does some stray reminder, or the casual mention of a name, bring the fit back upon him, taciturn and deprest?
Does he see himself reflected in me? In these hours, does he see the face of his hours reflected?

~ Walt Whitman


been feeling pretty lost and overwhelmed lately.. like my hopes and dreams are being swept away by cruel gusts and waves of circumstance yet my life remains still and unchanged.. in this state of mind i've found it very hard to focus on creative things and day after day i plan to post something different only to feel unsure and unconfident and unable to do it.. and with every day of suppressing the need to express myself through this process it becomes harder to begin again.. so tonight i felt i had to find some way to throw myself back into it before the doubts and anxieties become worse and a pause turns into a famine.. i needed to put something together from scratch that i hadn't been thinking about and staring at for days or months and just pour myself into it and try to find some release by sharing it with the world.. after all that's what art is all about and i don't want to lose the great positivity i've found in sharing myself and my heart with all you wonderful people here through this mutual creative passion of ours.. i don't want a bad period to be made worse by sacrificing this special thing.. so in a sort of stream of consciousness process that i can't even really remember i put this together from a picture i took some months ago.. it's a very simple image visually but it somehow felt like it represented the emotions that are racing through me.. that it told a story of my state of mind and soul even if i myself am rather confused as to exactly what that story is right now...

sorry i can't write too much technical info.. i'll try and come back with what i remember.. now i must sleep! goodnight dear friends and i'll be back to critique and such later :-)

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  • alagoa Gold Star Critiquer/Gold Star Workshop Editor [C: 1258 W: 97 N: 9] (0)
  • [2005-05-27 3:56]
  • [3]

Sleep with the angels princess Chiaraluna...
This one is a beauty! You're "lost in blue" and with this simple image you've taken us with you and let us feel your pain...
It's a profound, special and heartfelt compositon, where you chose to share so much with us.
I will leave you the words of Rainer Maria Rilke:
"It is always my wish that you might find enough patience within yourself to endure, and enough innocence to have faith... Believe me, life is right in all cases"

"To love is also good, for love is difficult. For one human being to love another is perhaps the most difficult task of all, the epitome, the ultimate test. It is that striving for which all other striving is merely preparation."

Take care Ayda! Don't let yourself go down to much, remember that we are here for you always...

Ana

Ayda,

well... first the note:

what an amazing piece of litrature. I have not heard of this guy before - strange but true. I don't know if he was speaking to you, but I felt that he was speaking to me. I have the same doubts and fears that he has - incredible stuff, and very haunting. Sometimes we don't like to look too deep inside ourselves from fear of what we might see. I have a habit of soul searching... most of the time I find that it helps me, but it can also be destructive - well, it can in my case.

Your words... seems like you have a lot on your mind and you are a bit down in the dumps. Here is a hug for you in the hope that it helps *HUG*. I sincerely hope that to begin to raise the strength to move forward from this point in your life. From the bottom of my heart, I hope that you continue to produce such fine work as you have posted here.

The image... what can I say... the blue is great and sets the 'tone' and lends strenght to the melancoly. I would have liked it a bit darker, but I am bias to dark stuff. The more sad, I become, the darker my work. Like you my moods are expressed through photography. Anyway, the lateral motion blur (at a guess) really pulls this image (no pun intended). When we are wondering around in a listless existance, we often feel as though we are not quite connected to our body, and sometime a little numb and dizzy. That is what you image says to me. Whether it was intentional, or not, it has reminded me of the feeling I get when lonley, tired, overly bored or severly fed up with life the universe and everything.

Wishing you well, here's another hug for good measure *HUG*

Take Care,

Lance

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  • toni Gold Star Critiquer/Silver Note Writer [C: 132 W: 0 N: 32] (793)
  • [2005-05-27 7:16]

Hi Ayda
Très belle image j'aime ce PP l'effet est vraiment superbe
Nice work
Toni

Ayda, Do not forget that bad periods are but the shadow of good periods. Without the good periods would became flat, monotonous, unintersting. Bad period give us the adrenaline shot to resurface to good things in life. The motion blur in you picture is going the wrong way because it shows that you are going backwards. Try to change it if not in you picture, which is a good one, in your life.
Keep going and never give up.
Arturo

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  • nova Gold Star Critiquer/Gold Star Workshop Editor/Gold Note Writer [C: 2733 W: 263 N: 864] (8653)
  • [2005-05-27 7:46]

Another creative and amazing picture coming from a talented photographer! I am very impressed! It is beautiful,very soft and intriguing and illustrates very well the notes attached (or vice versa)! Very well done,Ayda! TFS! Michel

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  • edie Gold Star Critiquer [C: 659 W: 0 N: 0] (0)
  • [2005-05-27 10:36]

Ayda I love it.There is so much pathos in this picture as well as in your words.
Take care
Edie

ps I send you a mail...

Beautiful image, so full of feelings. For me, mixed ones. At te same time that I see some placelight in the white "shadows", I also see distress and sadness. It'sa very meaningfull photograph.

I started to write this before I read your note, and I thought, your heart is still bleeding... I came back to this image several times to try to put in words what i see and what it makes me feel, and among so many different i still cannot describe. I just hope, from the botton of my heart, that putting yourself out and sharing with the world your feelings will help in the healing process. I strongly believe that when somebody let go of things that boder and cause pain instead of keeping deep inside, it makes easy to find relief, and most of the times, one finds shouders, support, comprehension...

Sleep well my dear, and think about tomorrow as a better day.

Hugs, Stef

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  • Quark Gold Star Critiquer/Silver Workshop Editor [C: 1339 W: 10 N: 29] (66)
  • [2005-05-27 13:41]

Simple or not, the idea is great and this kind of work I've never seen, so it's a very original one too !
I like the blue but I see a sad face through the lines, that's a pity and reading your words, wish I could do something for you, maybe you can have a look at my For the one who's feeling down-picture, maybe it can help again, dear, dear Ayda...

hi Ayda.. i miss you works a lot.. and this is such a wonderful artwork.. full with emotion and feelings.. i like the effects you did.. great idea..!!!! the notes are really great too..

thanks for sharing
-thong-

It sounds like you are burned out Ayda. Don't wait too long, see your doctor, there is help for you. I've been there and know.
I like the blue tone of this, and the great post processing you did. The result is unique. Well done.
Take care of yourself.
Diana

Classy and very well done, extremely elegant.
Thank you Ayda ;)

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  • Dingo Gold Star Critiquer/Gold Star Workshop Editor/Gold Note Writer [C: 2744 W: 369 N: 2624] (11948)
  • [2005-05-28 9:29]

I guess you're right, Ayda... the best way to regain a good spirit is to keep your mind busy, and photography is a nice way to do it. I think this 'portrait' shows your mood excellently... Good PP work. TFS.

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  • Gand Gold Star Critiquer [C: 355 W: 0 N: 0] (0)
  • [2005-05-28 11:49]

A!?
Im just upload my last photo in very similar tehnique like yours! Someone can say I was inspired with your photo, but I'm realy dont see this shot until now.
It must be some strange connection between TL people.
Anyway, great job like always Aida.

I red you note three times, I could have wrote it partly, only I can't remember when. I still have some "knots" to unwind. Some are still hard as steel, some knots are made of other knots. But, where's a knot there's a string, a cord where we balance our intire life on. That sounds dull, tiring, but then again, in fact we know we are lucky to have knots, makes us think, rest, stop for a while, it all seems to come to a stop.... that hurts, our harts burn, we feel the pain of wanting to be back, balancing again, and we never shall be in full balance, it would make us speeding, every mile the same, we stop to notice, stop to mind...
I hope this, and all the others, somehow made your knot start to unwind, take your time, we'll be here, always, just start to talk or give a sign, for some day you'll be walking again!
Sure of that! See you again, Richard

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  • wayne Gold Star Critiquer [C: 292 W: 0 N: 0] (0)
  • [2005-05-28 21:15]

Ayda, I'm sorry to hear of your depressed circumstance. Whenever I feel down, I go for a run or bike ride aimlessly. It stimulates my mind I guess. Better than drinking my woes away! Anyway I interpret your picture as the colors representing your 'blues' and the horizontal lines give the impression that your existence is being blown away by some outside force that's out of your control. I suppose being in control of our external world would lead to some inner, internal peace. Try to sort it out.

Hello Ayda,
what I feel for this picture is this;
If you meet a strong wind, don't resist.. But, dont forget to feel that blow on your face.. It is strong.. faster than you.. so leave yourself easy.. Let it blow your stress away.. let your trouble blow with it.. away from you.. Just feel that cool, fresh air on your face..
After it fades, you ll feel refreshed like the soil after rain..
Take care beautiful Ayda..
Best wishes :)
..Calayan

I don't what to say that i hadn't said before.. or no one has said...

Your pp on portraits are very, very creative. As Diana has said once... I can learn a lot!!
Cheers... and thank you!!!
Carmem

Hi Ayda,
There is little relief in knowing this, you are not alone...just as Walt Whitman wrote. It is a part of life, but, there are other parts that are better. So, chin up!
Hugs!
Richard

the composition and il movimento creato dalle spennellate di grigio rendono molto l'idea dei pensieri sfuggevoli e del tuo stato d'animo. Sei brava , un saluto
Denis

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  • letr Gold Star Critiquer/Gold Star Workshop Editor/Gold Note Writer [C: 1162 W: 419 N: 1111] (6780)
  • [2005-06-01 17:50]

the note and the picture combined are very effective Ayda !!

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  • mwebr Gold Star Critiquer/Gold Star Workshop Editor/Gold Note Writer [C: 450 W: 141 N: 666] (3402)
  • [2005-06-02 14:35]

Confusion is good, usually means your processing.
The last part of your note is very interesting to me. Stream of consciousness process that you can't really remember. Well, in my openness Ayda that would be the consciousness not being the true seat, only a ghost/interface of the being. Meaning the being(you, not personality you but the being you)is the communicator. Stearing you in just the right directions for creative display and insight. It's truly amazing what can be seen through this true reflective communication. Eventhough I enjoy your title I see it as "Lost in you". The persona wants to be the existance so badly that the purity of self becomes seperated and usually scattered. Therefore through these creative and painful steps the seperation can start to be pulled back and pieced together for that which originally seperated the being is only mind. Mind maybe the gateway but not the gate opener. The mind is more so good at building rooms with locked doors and brick walls. And what can permeate brick after so long, emotion symbolized by water. Eventually the water breaks down the walls. Ok, time to wind down now.......phewww...ok.
You take care with luminous thoughts shining your way,

Michael

molto bello l'effetto "wind", abbinato a quel colore sta vetamente benissimo

grazie :)

ciaooo

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